I always stop to think about being on my own, and I freak out. Doing things on my own. I don’t mean alone relationship wise, that too, but growing up and having to take care of myself. Really growing up. It really scares me. I wish I had a plan and were certain of where I’m going or what I’m doing, but I’m not.

It wasn’t something I wanted to hear. But I needed to hear it. I needed a reality check. I needed to know that this is really happening.

I need to stop checking by bank account every second. I just wanna get payed.